Clipped the fifth draw, shit-terrified! Total panic state when I was squeezing myself into the space behind the big tufa after clipping the fifth draw. I have commitment issue, however, I feel like I can do the move in one go if I am less scared. I could reach the nice jug with my right hand if I have my left hand in the undercling. But I just don’t dare to commit. At least I got to try reaching the jug and know how it felt like.
Tomer was belaying me. Today I was calm and clipped the first 4 draws without being scared. It felt pretty easy to clip those today. When I got to the tuffa and the long pinch where you could clip the fifth draw, I was less scared than last time. But I was still stuck for a while. Tomer suggested me to stand on the tuffa with both feet and lean to the left while holding the punch with my right hand. I did what he said and suddenly I realized that I could touch the fifth draw! So I clipped! Yey it was such an amazing feeling! Last time I was terrified and held on at the same spot for sooooo long. But today I could clip... PROGRESS!
The strange thing was that once I clipped the fifth draw fear started to kick in. I just didn't know where to go from that point on. I'm not sure what I was afraid of... Maybe the fear of unknown. If I go the wrong way, I'd maybe fall, and if I fall, I fail. I don't like failing and I am working on being OK with failing. I did really enjoy the progress with this climb, so I am thankful for the scary moments and the feeling of worthlessness. Because without these, I wouldn't experience the feeling of making the progress
I had my right foot on the other big tuffa to the right and my left foot on the tuffa under the long pinch. I did not know where to go so I decide to take a fall. The fall was fun and nice. The true scary moment was letting go. I've fallen twice on this climb so hopefully I'll be a bit braver next time. I wanna send this route.
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